I just listened to some song by Jayyson DeRULooo! (like pretend he's singing that...it'll make more sense).
And, I don't understand mainstream media. I'm utterly confused. Ah, such is life.

Last night, which was a Monday, was my first Kairos group (a.k.a. College Small Group). Kairos is an Egyptian word for "time" but time in the sense that it's refreshing and you would enjoy being with the people you're with and just have a time of relaxation and friendship. It was really good.
Many people don't know this, but I get really nervous when meeting new people/telling them about my life, faith, etc I do not know why, but I am. It's not something that you would know automatically about me. But, I was extremely scared to walk into a room with a bunch of girls. Girls are sometimes mean and the playing field is rough.
But, these people were awesome. One of them likes Lord of the Rings. I like them too! She also liked Harry Potter, Degrassi, blogging, and cats! I was in such shock on my way home that I zoned out and almost ran a red light. (shhhh, don't tell any cop in Troy...they will hunt me down, I swear).
In any case, I am looking forward to meeting with this group every other week. It gave me some hope for the coming weeks of the semester that have been looking really bleak and scary for the past couple of weeks/month.

I never knew college would be so scary and intimidating. I talk about it so much outside of the internet. But, honestly, I hate not know what's coming in the next week. I'm not that wild and free even though I totally wish I could be. KDHFAHD;FHAEA;

Alas, I am kept from knowing the secrets of the Big Guy upstairs. It's just nice to have people who actually want to listen about my "trials" if they're even trials...IDK.

Frustration and FAKED

Hello-

It's really uber late right now...like 1:38 am. I just skyped with my best friend for about 2 and a half hours. And then uploaded by epic fail of a vlog attempt to my youtube....it was interesting. My mom laughed out of pity...but its a start.
So, I was reading this book called 'Counterfeit Gods' by some guy (i can't remember his name right now). But, the basic premises is that humans have "idols" instead of focusing on the real God. Now, I understand all this and was excited to read the book, to soak up some more knowledge about something that consumes my life.

However, it's degrading and condescending. Books like this are why people don't attend church. I'm sorry, but I am angry at the amount of open interpretation that seems to be the case with this man's writing and basic logic!
UGH! I love church and going to church and praying and journaling and my small groups. They are beautiful things. I love learning about human history and seeing the beauty in knowledge and where we come from. It is not a matter of who is right and wrong. It's all about loving each other for who we are and where we are in life. Cause thats what Jesus (the man this is all due too) is all about, LOVE. Right? Or am I just insane? It's about our stories whether or not the person you are conversing with is where you're at. It makes me so angry when people claim to believe something and then don't act on it.

DO IT!

Okay, so that was my totally random rant.
But, MSU reigned VICTORIOUS over Notre Dame. :D That entire game made me so extremely happy. My mother and I were screaming when they faked the field goal and ran the touchdown. It was a beautiful moment is Spartan football and I am proud to call myself a Spartan. (Well, in about four months time I will be, officially). Excited = not even close to comparing how I feel about that at this point in time!

I will try and make another video that will be just as AMAZING as the first one :)

teach me the mudgie.

My Attempt to Vlog

I have never really done anything particularly crazy in my life. I have lived an average 18 years of life and now I'm just waiting for something interesting to happen and that's not all that productive...or fun, really.
So, I attempted to make a vlog on YouTube and let me tell you, I EPICALLY failed at doing so. I was talking to a camera (which, apparently, I don't do often) and it was just so weird! I tried several times to talk to this said camera/edit said vlog/attempt to put it onto YouTube and then finally surrendered to the fact that I am mentally unfit for such a huge goal and was defeated.

So, now I'm just going to do what I know I can do. Which is write.

Speaking of YouTube, I am currently obsessed with the really good/famous vloggers such as "charlieissocoollike" and "nerimon" and, of course, "livelavalive." I must say that while I have failed to make good enough videos (for my liking) these people  ^ never cease to entertain me and make me laugh harder than I have for a long time. It's delightful.

Maybe someday I will attempt this enormous task again, but until then, I'm staying with words.

Till next time, friends.