Memories

Just now, I put in the movie Rent to my DVD player and reminded myself how precious music is to my soul and how much growing up sucks.
The opening number in and of itself made me tear up a little. I remember this past year and how great, satisfying, terrible, beautiful, growing, and confusing it was.
Whether I like to admit it or not, I fell in love this past year. He was...nice. I really seriously cared about him too. We went to dances, watched many a movie, and had good times. But, there was always something missing. But, I loved just like Rent reflects on.
I graduated high school. Those people I fell in love with as well. There is more than one years worth of love with these people. They have kept me close to my values as well as kept my head on the ground.

Sometimes though, I feel like my love isn't good enough for people, even though it is. I will never see the fruits of that. Love is a God given gift and should be held precious to the human heart.
Just all this music brings me back to middle school and early high school when my life was boy free and all I needed was this glorious music. Sometimes I wish I could go back to those days when all I retained from life was music and words.
But, as we grow as people, we forget how to appreciated the little blessings that are given to us everyday.
That boyfriend dumped me and half the friends I had are gone due to moving cities or just growing apart. That boy was precious to me. So were those friends. But things change, feelings change and some people were put in our lives for short periods of time. This movie always reminds me of that. Death is not the end. It is only the beginning of a beautiful adventure. Although, often enough, the longing to return to easier days is absolutely overwhelming. It pulls at our weak human hearts hoping to always live within us.
There is always another day. And love can conquer anything, if only we gave it a chance.